As I've been on this journey of healing, specifically over the past 11 months I've struggled as I've stepped back from "active ministry". I had a good discussion about this with my counselor today and it gave me a whole new take on things. If I was just living with the pain and not dealing with it and trying to minister I wouldn't be effective in ministry. By dealing with the pain and working on the healing process, I am really denying myself even though it feels as though I am being selfish. I am working through all of this because I WANT to be healthy. I want to be used by God and be able to minister effectively for His Kingdom and I can't do that until I work through some things and that is going to take a little time yet. In the meantime I cling to what my former counselor said, "There is no pain without purpose." - this statement reminds me of one of my favorite verses... Romans 8:28
Even as I'm going through this journey - it is my hope and prayer that I am a living, breathing, walking example of one whose Hope is resting COMPLETELY in Christ. I am so grateful for friends along the journey who believed for me when I couldn't believe and for God who NEVER GIVES UP ON ME!
Holding on to Hope,