Sunday, June 26, 2011

Sixteen weeks and not feeling ready!

Well, today marks sixteen weeks until the marathon. When I decided to run the marathon again this year I thought, I did it last year when I was in the midst of a bunch of turmoil in life, I can surely do it this year. However, I gained some weight and have been really struggling with my runs. I have had a bad past few days of eating and lack of exercising. I'm frustrated and feeling a little depleted today. However, I am remembering that I have a goal in front of me and I have never been one to back down from something I set in front of myself. Even though life isn't as full of turmoil as it was last year, I am still going through the grieving/healing process. Running is something that has helped with the process... I enjoy my time out there, just me and God. Time I can pray and think...

My first two weeks of training I have missed some days that I had scheduled to work out. I am determined in the next 16 weeks to stick to my schedule and even if I have to walk more than run I am going to get my miles in. I would like to improve my time from last year, but more than anything my goal is to finish the marathon again.

This morning I didn't feel like getting out of bed. Buddy was meowing at me... I think it was God's way of getting me out of bed and to church where He knew I needed to be. I felt better being with my amazing church family and worshiping my God. Just as I got of bed this morning when I didn't feel like it, I need to get out and get those miles in even when I don't feel like it. With my eyes focused on the Lord and all He has brought me through I am determined to keep going... putting one foot in front of the other... in my training and in life... when I feel like it and when I don't.