Tuesday, February 8, 2011

I posted, in pieces and then in its entirety the "love passage" from 1 Corinthians as my status on facebook today. I did this because I have been staring at February 14th on the calendar ever since I turned my calendar from January to February. Whether single, married, divorced, widowed, dating... we live in America and February 14th has been "designated" the day to express this romantic love to your significant other. For some of us this is a sad day, others embrace it as "God is love" day. Others express love to all their friends on this day. There is no right or wrong as far as I'm concerned, it is what it is.
Last year was the first Valentine's Day I had a significant other. It was a day like many days for us, our plans were canceled as he was called to work unexpectedly. This was just one chance of many I had to show my love for David - understanding that he had to do what he had to do and knowing that my love for him wasn't dependent on whether or not we had dinner together that night.
I have never learned more about love than I have over the past year. For the first time in my life I truly loved another in this way. I gave my heart completely and loved even when it was hard and when others told me to give up. I still love him. I always will.
My encouragement to all my friends this month and every month; on Valentine's Day and every day - remember what love is and what love isn't. Love isn't just some giddy emotion or an excitement in the pit of your stomach. It isn't the flutter of your heart when you see them across the room. Love is a commitment, love is a choice. Love is through good and bad. Love is no matter what.
If you are blessed to have a love like this, cherish it, treasure it, don't take it for granted. If someone has given you their heart in this way, handle it with care - love them as you want to be loved. Remember, love isn't easy, but it is worth it.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Good week, Bad week, Good week, Bad week...

This is how my year has been going so far. I'll do really well one week - get my workouts in, be doing well with my Bible reading/praying, eating healthy, etc. Then the next week is bad, etc... etc... Some weeks some things go well and others not so well. Some weeks most things go well and others not so well. Some weeks not much goes well and everything else goes not so well. This has been my year.

The past week I have been doing well with eating healthy and spiritual disciplines. However, working out has been on the back burner. I know I feel better when I am consistent in this, but I have just been having a hard time being motivated to go to the gym. I am SO ready for Spring. I long to go outside in the fresh air and walk and run and enjoy nature. I am SO tired of being inside. I'm ready for the snow to melt and to get out and breathe the fresh air without feeling like my lungs are going to freeze. As I write this, we are preparing for below zero temperatures and wind chill warnings in the area... sigh. :-(

Right now I am overall just feeling kind of blah. I don't have much to say. I continue to be thankful for my friends who have stuck by me through the times where I am doing well and times I am not doing so well. I am thankful for my counselor who is helping me along my journey to healing. I am thankful for a wonderful, loving church family who have been so supportive and encouraging. Mostly I am thankful to my God who never gives up on me and has given me wonderful friends, counselor, and church family and shows His love, grace and mercy through them.

With thanksgiving in my heart, even in the blah times of life,