I'm lying in bed, trying to sleep but I can't quiet the voices in my head... so I write...
I'M SO OVERWHELMED TODAY! I have physical, emotional, and spiritual "junk" I'm trying to work through.... translated... numerous books, Bible studies, things I want to go through and there are NOT ENOUGH HOURS IN THE DAY! I'm trying to prioritize and figure out what I can do at the same time, what needs to be done first, what can wait....... It all just seems like too much. They are all good things, they are all things that need to be done, but they can not all be done RIGHT NOW.
Our church has been working on a vision statement and our Pastor is going to be preaching on it this Summer. This is one of those situations where I feel like the Sesame Street segment... "Which of these is not like the other? Which of these things just doesn't belong?
As a single, never married, no kids member of the church that is how I feel. Our mission statement is about nurturing families and individuals in their relationship with Christ. We are being encouraged to really look into what our purpose is, what God's vision for our life is. I am gifted in service and helps, and therefore feel this overwhelming urgency to DO something. And yet, I very clearly hear God saying, STOP... remember to just breathe... He's reminding me that if I don't take care of myself and my own healing process then I won't have anything to give.
Yes... God, You are enough... You are big enough... You are all I need and You will bring me through this...
I was encouraged by visits with a couple of friends today. It was so encouraging to be reminded of the simplicity... to be reminded that God may be calling me to something different at this season of my life... that just because I have a desire to help and to serve, God may be calling me to something different,
Even in the midst of difficult seasons, in the midst of uncertainty, in the midst of the chaos that is in my brain...
Know I am God!