Not giving up!

UGH!!!! I'm SO frustrated with myself right now. It's been almost 4 weeks since I've been to the gym. I've been feeling awful physically and emotionally and I KNOW I would feel better if I were exercising regularly. I haven't been eating well and I KNOW I would feel better if I were eating healthier.

Getting this balance thing down is more difficult than I thought. I feel like I'm doing better regarding my spiritual life (although it could still use improving) and I'm doing better on a personal level as far as taking time for taking care of myself emotionally.

I have GOT to get back on track. I have GOT to quit making excuses. I have GOT to get serious about my eating and exercising!

So, it's easy to say this, but so much more difficult to actually DO it. I need a plan. Starting tomorrow I will go to the gym after work and work out for at least 30 minutes. Starting tomorrow I will get serious about eating right... I'm going back to what I did when I first changed my eating habits. No more caffeine, whole grains, fruits and veggies, eating natural and whole foods.

So, I'm posting this here for all of you to see...

I have to do this...As my doctor first told me when I first started making changes - my life depends on it.

I want to do this... My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit and I need to treat my body as such.

I have to do this... I'm sick of feeling like junk.

I want to do this... I want my life to be a reflection of God's work in me. I want to live a life that is pleasing to Him and I believe that includes being disciplined in this area that I've struggled so hard with my whole life.

I know I can't do this without God's help. I am surrendering to Him and trusting Him to help me to overcome this battle which I have faced for so long. I'm a survivor and I will not give up this fight no matter how long I have to battle through.